lately ive been thinking about talking to the rents about dropping out of my courses at NSCC its just not really for me here. the hardest part is the fact that my parents are so adamant about me going to school now becouse its art, and that's "what im good at" but i cant help but feel like im wasting my time here.
im more afraid of making them disappointing them more then anything. and another big concern is money.. MONEYYYY so much went into it here i feel like i just wasted 300+ of my parents and my own money.. and like , fuck.. FUCK .. but like.. i guess ou gotta do what makes you happy right?

the absolute worst part is.. if i left.. id have to give up ollie.. at least for a while.. and that just fuckign tares my heart out..